On Floating.

A letter to a friend.

Just read your first entry. I do know that there are others like you and I who are actively pursuing actually living life. I watched a documentary film about the life of Joseph Cambell last night and his message has given me a key to overcome one of my biggest issues not only creatively, but also personally: When trying something new (entering the unknown) or conflict arrises (causing anxiety, fear, and insecurity), I have always relied on my intellect exclusively, thus becoming paralyzed by over analyzation, making every act a task. Tirelessly working in such a cold void is exhausting and kills the joy of creation. Furthermore, in romantic relationships, pure intellectualism creates cracks and faultlines in foundation of Love even as the cornerstone of the first kiss is shared. Cambell's ideas of the monomyth has provided me with a call to acknowlage the journey of self-realization. Since I am the hero of my own story, this journey I am embracing (the journey began at birth, I just ignored it's significance) to write my own mythology is already allowing me to build a spiritual framework which allows me to harness my potential to Love and Create. By building my own personal mythos, I am giving meaning to all I Love, think, and do. Equally important, I find that I am truely recognizing and appreciating other people's roles in my life and in turn, mine in theirs. This is a very powerful realization. When it hit me, I finally let go of all of the pain of rejection and abandonment I have felt concerning the ending of my romantic relationship with Lauren. Instead of looking at our relationship as over, I have come to terms with the fact that our roles in each other's lives has merely changed. It also has allowed me to be open to the possibility that roles may change again, thus negating feelings of regret that I have felt for months (embracing the unknown).  Lastly, I am seeing clearly the beauty in myself, others, and truely appreciating adventure of life.

Track One. Future Islands.